When You Take It All Off

When You Take it All Off

To my conscience:

You always remind me
Of how much a fool
I have been these days
You put into my system
The blame for not being
Virtuous enough
At sitting up for myself
You always tell me I’m thoughtless,
Unprincipled and loathsome.
Are you telling me these
Because you’re always right for anything?
Call me detest able and disgusting,
I’m just another imperfect being
Who feels and thinks this way.
But my perception and sensibility
Makes me more human.
It might be better not to pin
All my hopes on you.
I am already jaded and rotten
Walking along this lonely road.
I’m used up of hearing more
Of your admonition.
It’s no use to me now.
I am tired of your constant
Evangelizing and feeding me up
The dose of your sarcasm
Stop shouting and echoing
Your shriek voice in my ears
You’re having bright red mark on the face.
You think you know it all
But you can’t read my heart
I’ve been waiting half my life
To get a life, trying to slow
Things down instead of speeding them up.
But you’ll never guess what!
Haven’t you seen the good side of me?
I’m thinking about my little dream
And how it is going to be mine.
All you think I’m mean and vain,
And that my life is spinning
At the wrong direction
So there you are
You take it all off!
Then one more go.
It seems you enjoy watching
Me bare naked.
Tears are dribbling down on my face
Beating me up and beating me more
But you can’t hear me moaning
Even if how much I cringe for pain
Neither can you hear me sounding
Oddly like a tormented man in the dark.
I won’t shiver, I won’t scream
It won’t help me in anyway
I’d wish to be a man with a
Heart at his right breast,
I pray to be at peace with myself
And to my God
This is what I want most in my life.
Cant you see I’m fighting back now?

Then you become silient...