The Journey of a Teacher

The Journey of a Teacher
(An Introduction to My Blog)

Life in this world is a constant struggle, but the greatest battle truly lies within. How can I make this earthly journey full of meaning and adventure? Well it all depends on how I live my life. And for this reason I want to be mindful of what is going on in me every step of the way. Ever since college days, I have kept diaries for some reasons. I’m naturally a private person. I didn’t usually share my secrets with anyone else. When the world seemed unfair, writing down all my negative thoughts inside was the only option to solace my downcast spirit.

At first, there was a hard force at work within me. I was afraid that people would find out who I really was and that they might not understand. It was so hard to find real friends whom I could share great ideas and secrets with. I didn’t have anyone with whom I could open up my life like a book. But later on, I somehow learned to conquer all my fears. I’m now ready for the world to probe me closely like a glass slide on a microscope. I just conditioned my mind into thinking that after all, the consequences may not to be catastrophic.

My writing is now expanding. I have kept diaries for over seven years which unexpectedly turned out a compilation of six books (the first one was lost, until now it remains a mystery to me). However, diary is generally for private reading. Only few are given the chance to get invited to enter into my world, mostly the ones invited are those people with tested integrity.

From Diary to Blog

A year ago, when I watched a TV drama-documentary, Nagmamahal Kapamilya on ABS-CBN (a giant television network in the Philippines) the life story and travelogue of the young, adventurous Filipino-American caught my attention. His journey was intriguing to me. He calls himself a Coconuter. If you want to check his site, here’s the link: http://www.coconuter.blogspot.com/. I was so impressed and amazed his life testimonies and his journey here in the Philippines. He inspired me in different ways and even made me think deeper. It was only recently when I asked this question: Why should I not extend my diary into a blog? And so this blog exists. This blog has just born; it’s a brainchild from a Coconuter whose life is intricately lived in search of the perfect coconut that would fall to him from the sky.

Reason for Writing this Blog

I write it for myself and for everyone who is interested in transformation, transition or understanding that life as a huge battlefield is still beautiful. Writing this blog underscores the importance of a frequent mental catharsis. My journal entries help me look within myself and explore the world around me.

The Contents

I am a writer and poet in my own right. They said that poet sees more than ordinary person and feels more deeply than others do. I post here my poetry and my other literary works back in college days along with their beauty, mystery and irony which are truly engrossing and pleasant. Some of the genres are subtly sarcastic, mildly humorous and intensely emotional. They are all about the contemplation of myself and my dilemmas as a person, a friend, a son, a hopeless romantic and my work as a teacher. This blog is inspired to stir noble and lofty meanings of the life I live. Revealed in here are my joys, frustrations, lessons from mistakes and successes. My reflection helps me figure out what is really important in life.

Mistakes in Life

In the life of every person, there comes a time when he thinks he is invincible and he believes that the power of the sun is in his hand. Every person has his individual stumbling blocks onto the road to becoming a complete human being. I do remember all the asinine mistakes and blunders I made. I had been guilty of so many stupid, silly things myself. But I outgrew all them with the years. Now it is the time to bring something new to myself. There is another side of me for the world to see.

The Clear Guide

As I enter into the threshold of maturity, things are quite different because life demands more patience than what I can truly bear. But in the daily run of life, I learn to ignore them entirely. Every day is a self-discovery. I stand watchful of my every move. I observe that life is also a constant perturbation and triumph. What is important is I know how to stand again when I fall down. When I have doubts about the new path I lead, I am reminded in gentle reprimand that life is never easy, but there is God who gives a clear guide that I cannot do without. It takes misery to teach us about joy. It takes death to teach us about life, so embrace it when it comes.

How I Write My Thoughts

This is how I write all my thoughts. I crack away on the computer keyboard or furiously scribbling with my ballpoint pen until the ink spatters on the copy paper. There are times I find it hard to translate my thoughts into words. And there are times I find it really easy. I feel good at the moment and the words wonderfully flow like water from new found geyser. I want this blog to be a testimony of my existence. I want to overflow this with stirring emotions, angst and anguish, hopes and dreams including my prayers, songs, my unique encounters with people and my keen observations about the world I live. Writing down my thoughts helps me gain better perspective. It keeps me in the right balance. It is good thing for me to be able to sort out my feeling and thinking. This way, it can easily work on the area of my life that needs evaluation and filling up. I know that along the way, I would be vulnerable and transparent to all people but I don’t mind it. I don’t think less of myself, rather I feel a relief because the truth finally sets me free in this paradoxical life. And I don’t want to be a total stranger to myself. I am leading a secret thought life like anybody else, a life different from the image I projected. The more I write here in this blog, the more naked my thoughts seemed. I just let all these mixed feelings come out. I don’t want to store them up inside me forever.


An Invitation

Writing is a self-evaluation, an art of emotional healing. Writing about getting real and being true to what you think and feel is right is like a ray of sunshine on a rainy day consoling my depressed being. It keeps me in the right direction. I want to be as honest as I can possibly be in using the words to elaborate and express my feelings and thinking. I invite all people to join me in my arduous journey. This blog is also about my experiences, my successes and discoveries and other random thoughts. I hope I could maintain this site. Welcome to my life!